I FORGOT I HAD THIS WORDPRESS ITS NOW OCT 21ST 2023!

I was trying to make a woocommerce store and it brought up my site forworseorworst. I totally had forgot I documented all that I did. Wow fast forward from 2017 to 2023. Divorce was final 2019. I still have to deal with him and he got even worse after the divorce.

he is supposed to follow the parenting plan we signed in the divorce decree. He even asked the judge for a extra night Wednesdays to be extended to overnight every other week. Since he has not followed that parenting plan one single week. He has not kept a reliable parenting/visitation schedule at all. But yet I to make sure our child is dressed packed and ready each time noted and agreed as his time…. what a joke the laws are surrounding this…. How I could be held accountable as breaking the law of I appear to be denying or interfering with ” his times”. But yet he can lie and call with excuses and no show on a regular basis. There should be consequences for the noncustodial when they don’t do their part as agreed.

This ” man” has show what he is capable of. He is 1000000% self centered. He made the choice to start up drinking. In a manner I had never seen from him. He apparently was drinking day in day out… He become a complete in and out absent parent. I hate him for it.

He had saturated himself with alcohol so much he claimed he needed a medical detox. He made the biggest deal out of all of this. Damandijg people’s support …. Detox followed by in patient rehab in a state across the nation…. he gets back and still didn’t keep a reliable schedule. . Really just seemed like thr same shit to me. Not even a year later he creates about round or chaos claims he needed yet again another detox! Followed by another round of in patient rehab then a out patient….. all of this has been hell for th people forced to be around it all. The lies excuses complete lack of parenting such a untrustworthy toxic irresponsible human being. So the last round of his rehabs was Oct 2022. Drumroll. He had been drinking again.. like click work he downplayd it and he loves to blame or put it on me somehow.. he truly effects me still and it feels evil. The worst isn’t him putting everything on me. It affects my ability to work full times hours… It effects my money in many ways. It effects my ability to my best self. Worse than all that is the negative impacts it has on our child. This guy doesn’t show any real concern how serious this all is. He will say things he thinks people want to hear but WE HAVE ALL learned he is not a man of his word not even a small percent of time. He is one of those self centered untrustworthy emotional vampires. I don’t know how to handle all this. I have maybe not made all the best ways to handle this. But I am doing the best I can with my childs best interest at heart. My main thing has been not keeping all this anger inside or around me at all. So I have been very nice in most our interactions. But I am seeing he is taking this as their is still ” hope” he a totally said this the other day… Again.

so I don’t see a win win here.

Why he can’t grow up and match his age somewhat 47 years old. Just be a responsible decent parent.

keep your times with the child! Make a home for him with you! Stop calling to drink. Stop making the same mistakes and not learning form them!!

Stop always expecting me to handle everything. Just do these things. Everything would’ve been so much more healthy. But nope

this is him to the core. He has some of the worst personality traits a human can have.

Black Lives Matter Releases Policy Agenda

Black Lives Matter Releases Policy Agenda
— Read on www.google.com/amp/s/www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/ncna620966

As I read through these demands.

I can’t help but to be taken back.

Just a couple that stood out:

Immediate release of and Expunged criminal records, erase and extraction from the history books, reallocation of wealth, free healthcare free education to all blacks.

Wow! 

In my day to day life I am not exposed to racism on any level.

I work with a diverse group. I also don’t know that many people of color.

I work with a black woman, a Hispanic woman, a white man and a multi race man. Each one of us work hard and I respect all my co workers.

My experience with racism, contradict many of the examples and concerns I have heard while engaging in some conversations on social media with black women.

I watched a white woman get arrested, the police handed her mixed child to the black father as they took the white mom to jail. They absolutely believed him.

I have been passed on for a promotion, losing it to a black woman.

I don’t feel one race is superior to another. I also don’t see it in my day to day life.

So when I engage in these conversations. I am told. No I am wrong,

that my life is considered more important in the eyes of the police. This is fact.

How black communities do not get the same ” privilege ” that whites get.

I don’t see this or live this reality, I have to take the word of these black women.

I also have felt a lot of resentment (at the least) One black women said my race is responsible for the division of black and white in this country and still is today in 2020.

How the demands outlined in the BLM movement “will level the playing field”.

I read about each demand.

My first impression is wow this isn’t leveling this is tipping it over to one side.

But respectfully, I am going to believe what these women are saying despite not seeing this in my life. So what does this mean for our future?

If these demands will resolve the systematic racism, resentments and prejudice in America then ok I am all for it.

I have a hard time understanding these demands they seem super unfair. I don’t have any of that. I don’t know anyone that does

But what ever will resolve the resentment and prejudice. Anything that will show the truth whatever that may be. Do it.

I would hope 100 years from now, one of two things will have been factually and statistically proven.

Either way it goes.

If success or fail they have their own communities to thank.

Give the demands. Free us all from this negative resentment amongst America.

Also stereotypes. People needs to understand these come from something. Something real.

Just because some stereotypes are not negative in nature, are those excepted?

I don’t see color.

I see each person as a individual, 4/5 of the black women I have spoken to about this movement have been very racist in nature towards me. ( yes racist )

I am for the demands in the movement.

Change real change is clearly needed.

Why is my Herbal tincture post getting so many down votes? I don’t see any negative feedback… I don’t mind just curious.

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